Was hearing Hillary Clinton speak at a Presidential Debate. She used a small phrase that I really liked- Nibbled to death. Just felt like writing it!

I am addicted. Before you raise your eyebrows in suspicion, let me reveal to what. I am addicted to chocolate. Have been hogging on Ferrero Rocher since morning! And there are two more bars in my drawer that are pining to plunge out of it and into my mouth! At this rate, Rotund is what my body shape will become! But, on the brighter side, it'll save me the trouble of walking....just a push, and I'll roll over! No mehnat!! :D
Oh no! I can see the last piece of Ferrero Rocher longingly staring at me. Should I succumb?

Ever since I was a little girl, I have lived in two worlds. One, the real one and the other, my world. The world of my fantacies. The world which gave fruition to my dreams, sometimes my hidden ambitions and desires. Come to think of it, I think I had an awesome imagination as a kid!

When I was very young, a doctor is what I wanted to be....for sometime at least! I remember having this big white shirt that an older cousin gave me that I used to wear everytime I thought I was an doctor. A doctor waiting upon imaginary patients, with imaginary ailments. I found it so exciting, with my make belief stethescope and everything curing the patients away to recovery...conducting surgeries and God knows what!
And then there was a time when I wanted to be a teacher! And all I would do was to correct answerbooks and grade them! The fact that magazines made up pretty well for these answerbooks can easily be ignored though! Sounds verrry strange and "how on earth did I do all that?!!" now, but that was the world that I lived in for a part of my life. And I loved it.

But the one thing that I remember with most fondness is something else. It has kinda seeped into my conciousness in a way, but that's because I produced 'documentary' evidence of it myself! When I was really really young, say in class 2 or so, and onwards, I made two friends. And those were a recoreder and a cassette that went in it! I still have it with me and my Mom loves playing it...though, its when we want a good laugh that we do that! :D Hearing it, I think I probably wanted to be an RJ, though I don't remember having that kind of an ambition really. Considering just how shy and reserved I have always been ( and believe me, I was worse when I was younger!), an RJ would have been the last thing I could see myself being successful at! But, but, but...these recordings were the most inherent part of me at a time when I was barely 7 or 8. I would hold shows of my own....about everything...from cookery shows....to dance recitals....to comedy shows...even News reading! Mostly everything!! I don't know why I did that, especially since I was so wrapped up in my cacoon most of the times. Maybe, that's how I vented out whatever little expression I had! I don't really know....maybe, maybe not.

There are so so so many things that I thought myself to be, so many situations that I though myself caught in that I can't help but laugh now at these idiosyncracies that I was always harboured within me. But, maybe I'm being wicked at doing it now. For, for little girl that I once was, this was the World.

I wonder why I'm not writing these days! I have all the free time in the world I have ever had in my life and still I am not doing anything about it! God! I always knew I was lethargic, but to this extent?! Not cool!!